Wednesday 11 April 2012

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My Parents are everything for me. and I hate being the reason for their problems. My mother is crying from past three days and suffering from all hurt and pain and I am the reason for it. I cannot loose her, She is vomitting blood all time and I cant do anything sitting here. I trusted my husband and told him something but he betrayed me again. Its ok to hurt me but it affected my whole family this time. How can he do this...If he want me to treat his parents as mine then he also have some responsibility for my parents. If he cannot make them happy as least dont hurt them. What should I do now. My husband has broken my trust once again. I dont know how to react

Monday 9 April 2012

I am at home and thinking...

Thinking...
Why you love people so much that you end up hurting yourself. I love my husband a lot but its hard to trust him again and forgive what he has done to me.
Is it really easy to trust someone once again knowing you will fall on your face. But it become easy when you see that person in front of you. You just dont want to hurt that person and forget your pain. But when he is not in front of your eyes your heart starts paining again....this is what happening to me. I really dont know what to do coj i really cannot live without my husband. I hate it when he trys to convince me with all his lies. he doesnt have guts to confront. And also he doesnt have answers to my questions.
Why does he hide things from me??? why does he tell lies to me when I can feel all his love and passion for me??